Is help all that we have to ask for? If I came up to you, would you help me? It seems everywhere I look I'm told that the big step is asking for help...
But it does nothing.
No one seems willing to help--not even those close to me who I'm told should.
Maybe I don't know how to ask for help. I used to be the person that those close to me would go to when they needed help. I like to help people; I still help people. Once I found myself in a situation where I needed help and I realized that there was no one to help me. If I'm always the strong one, the one that people go to when they need help, what am I supposed to do when I need help? When the people around me would be hurt by proximity or when they wouldn't be able to handle the situation...how can I even approach them?
I went to one person when I was in that situation; he took advantage of me--aggravated an already traumatic experience. I found it hard to trust anyone or to think that I could get help without someone wanting something in return.
Then I met him...
and he helped.
Then I lost him.
Now I am again without someone to help. Someone who innately wants and likes to help people. Someone who would take my side without asking questions. I need someone like that.
Can you help me? Can you tell me that no matter what, you'd be there for me? Can you promise?
That's the help that I need--knowing that there's someone out there who can help...even though I'll never ask for anything.
I just need to know that someone is out there.
Can you help me?
